We talk about lots of serious stuff on this blog. It’s an outlet for us to share our journey as we raise our son. Sometimes, though, it’s important to just be. That’s often where Adam and I have the biggest struggles.
Growing up, play and self-care were considered bad in my home. I remember playing as a child but I don’t remember it ever being supported in an encouraging way. Self-care was seen as indulgent and unnecessary. As an adult, I struggle with ‘playtime’ and self-care. Playtime for an adult is taking the time to do things without an agenda…..just doing it for the enjoyment of it. It can be reading without the agenda of studying/researching. It can also be drawing or painting without planning to sell the work. It’s just enjoying life for enjoyment sake.
Now that the baby is in the picture, I want to set a good example for him of a balanced life. I don’t want him to see me working all the time without taking the time to have fun and take care of myself. I’ve started taking baby steps (yup!). Today, I indulged in some of my favorite tea from DAVIDs TEA. There was no agenda. It wasn’t part of breakfast. It wasn’t to cure an upset tummy. I did it to simply enjoy the pleasure of savoring the flavor of the tea. I can’t even tell you how hard it is for me to do something as simple as that just for the sake of doing it.
I’m super determined to make playtime and self-care habits, though. I want the baby to see that enjoyment and pleasure are regular parts of life. It’s actually one of the joys of being a human being. There are so many stresses and heavy things in this world…in life…..it’s worth it to find ways to have a bit of fun with it.